Our Glory...

I Wished For A Dream...

I wished for a dream,

A dream of a man & a woman

A dream filled with love & togetherness

A dream entwined with tears & laughter

A dream based on trust & faith

A dream of for-ever-after

A dream to savour & cherish

A dream that might come true some day

I wished a dream as such for you & me.

~~ J ï ŋ ŋ ï ~~

6^th July 2006, 6:51PM

Independence Day...

Today is the Maldivian Indipendence Day and below is the best independence day msg that I got during the day.

"Happy national day,
sorry happy huravy day.
O no, happy victory day.
I forgot happy birthday.
O shit, Best wishes on the special occasion of
INDEPENDENCE day. "

Mate, you must have been either sick, drunk or flying high on weed while you sent this to me.

Good Bye...

Time… time is such a funny thing. You go round & round in circles all your life, looking for an end that will never come and only to realize this when your end knocks on your door.

I ask you… Why? Why ME? Of all the woman in this world who are running after you, needing… no wanting one thing, just one thing from you… sex. Yes, I said “sex”. S. E. X. They are open about what they want, they are straight forward, they said it. You can pick and choose… whom ever you want, how ever you want and when ever u want it. Then why me? I am not after sex, your money, or position. I am old and at the very least I am definitely older than you; mentally, physically, age wise, you name it I am OLD. I am not getting any younger, just older. I have nothing to offer you that would keep your interest in me for more than five seconds maybe (if I am lucky). Then why is it like the changes in the direction of the wind, you keep taunting me, calling me, beckoning to me, hinting to me…of things you never want to give, of things you never want to share, of things you never want or care? Yes, I agree, for some unknown reason you have this power over me. This magnetism, force, attraction, lust (???)…call it what ever you like…I feel it and I am damned sure you do too. I know my thoughts and my body feels disconnected when I am around you and you make me putty with just a single glance.

But let me get myself back on track… Why??? Why??? Why??? Damn it, answer me. Why me? And more to the point, Why NOW??? Why are you treating me like a yoyo? What do you want from me? Just say it and get it over with. If you can’t or don’t have the answers then FIND the answers. It is within you and no one else can find it for you. Don’t tempt me again, not unless you want to finish what you started. And to me, when I say “finish”, I mean either my death or yours. Yes, “till death do us part” and the whole shebang.

I will soon disappear from your life and just like the rest of the world you will not mourn for me, you will not miss my absence. In fact, you will rejoice in the fact that I am gone. I say this so that you are used to the idea. JINNI IS GONE. JINNI WILL NEVER COME BACK. So that one day when you open your eyes and look for me, out from the shadows that you dwell in and realize that I am no more, that I have disappeared, you do not say that I never said goodbye. So let me say goodbye to you everyday from now till the day I’m no more. For when that day comes my eyes shall not see you, my ears craving your husky and gruff voice shall not hear, my lips yearning to say your name shall not say it, my fingers hungering for your touch shall never feel you, my tongue longing for your texture shall not taste, my body dying for your invasion, consummation shall not know the fulfillment. That day, remember that I gave you my all… something which I never gave anyone except you and yet YOU kicked it away with your feet and then blamed me for something which you started. I shall die smiling, remembering you and you shall die smiling, never remembering me and never ever knowing any answers to the questions. Let this be the beginning of the End. Let me finish something that you started…

O’Shadow Watcher, I have a whole diary full of poems that I wrote just for you…about you. You shall see them as the days go by on THIS diary of mine. If you read them, smile, for I like seeing you happy.

This is my end, you shall not miss me for you shall not even know that I am gone. I shall die holding your heart, one last time, within the cup of my palms, feeling it beat a steady and strong rhythm. I kiss it with my blood filled tears and set you free. I take back the enchantment that binds your soul to me. This creature of Fire bows down to you as she has not done to another being, O’Creature of Clay & Earth, as my final respects to you. He, Who created me sumons me and I have to go. And I leave your life in His worthy hands.

Good bye…

What Tree Did YOU Fall From???

This is some nutcase stuff a friend sent to me, so I thought I'd share it with the rest of you folks out there. Here is what it says:

Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate. Then enjoy it, including the one that sent it to you, so they can find out what tree they fell from.

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 0! 2 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

TREES (in alphabetical order)
Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very
passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others,yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks
for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make
sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live
with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

Well, you all know which one I am, so go on and check out which one you are, hehehehe

Happy B'day Shy

Dear Shy,

As today is your very own special day, I want to say a little prayer for you. I pray to God that your little life be filled with tears of joy, may your smiles fill the sky as it fly, may you the bond that binds the two most loved people in your life, may there never be any reason or cause for you to feel strife, may your life be more colourful than a rainbow, may you always remain as special as you are now.

Many Happy Returns Of The Day.

Lots of love,
Jinni

Come To Me...

Come to me

I am your innermost desire
Come to me
I'll make all your dreams come true
Come to me
I'll make your fantasy into a reality
Come to me
Forget the rest of the world
Come to me
Make me only yours, all yours
Come to me
Fulfill my fantasy, my desire, my dreams
Come to me
Yes baby come to me....

Jinni
23 July 2006, 11:00AM

What You Want From Me....

Never strive for something
when you know it is written in your destiny
that it is not meant to be
so.

J i n n i

Time...

Time is but a measure
from today to tomorrow,
from the days that I yearn to see you
to the days when you'd be between my eyes.

J I N N I

Reflection...

Reflection of my soul, rippling upon the waters. Reflection of the moon, partly incomplete, reflecting upon my soul.

Jinni
14th July 2006, 10:57PM

Into The Night...

Upon this misty darkness that we call night, I wrote ur name in sighs of longing. My down cast eyes and gentle breathing just a facade for the turmoil of my heart. Like the brewing storm outside, my mind is in an uproar. I lift my face up to the sky and feel the rain lashing upon it. My soul scream out, though I am silent. Like a wolf howling into the night, I let my mind cry, cry for my soul mate... just like the wolf.

J ¡ η η !

7th July 2006
04:05AM